Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Candle In The Wind ...

Ever since I was a little girl, Marilyn Monroe has been one of my favorite actresses/singers of all times. For being such a beautiful face in the crowd, she had a rough life and in the end, she never received the kudos that I believe she should have. She was very smart (although none-too-many believed that). I thought I would share some of her quotes with you, so that maybe you could understand as well how wonderful she really was. She touched my heart in every movie she was in, every interview that she gave and every song that she sang.

"My illusions didn't have anything to do with being a fine actress. I knew how third rate I was. I could actually feel my lack of talent, as if it were cheap clothes I was wearing inside. But, my God, how I wanted to learn, to change, to improve!"

"In Hollywood, a girl's virtue is much less important than her hairdo. You're judged by how you look, not by what you are. Hollywood's a place where they'll pay you a thousand dollars for kiss, and fifty cents for your soul. I know, because I turned down the first offer often enough and held out for the fifty."

"People had a habit of looking at me as if I were some kind of mirror instead of a person. They didn't see me, they saw their own lewd thoughts, then they white-masked themselves by calling me the lewd one."

"I've often stood silent at a party for hours listening to my movie idols turn into dull and little people."

"I am involved in a freedom ride protesting the loss of the minority rights belonging to the few remaining earthbound stars. All we demanded was our right to twinkle."

"No one ever told me I was pretty when I was a little girl. All little girls should be told they're pretty, even if they aren't."

"I`ve never dropped anyone I believed in."

"I love a natural look in pictures. I like people with a feeling one way or another - it shows an inner life. I like to see that there`s something going on inside them."

"My problem is that I drive myself... I`m trying to become an artist, and to be true, and sometimes I feel I`m on the verge of craziness, I`m just trying to get the truest part of myself out, and it`s very hard. There are times when I think, `All I have to be is true`. But sometimes it doesn`t come out so easily. I always have this secret feeling that I`m really a fake or something, a phony."

And there you have it! Marilyn Monroe. Real. Envied. Alone. Scared. Strong. Sensitive. Compassionate. Soulful. Aware. Ingriguing.

I can't imagine what life would have been like for her. All that she wanted was to be loved. She got WAY MORE than she bargained for. Fame got in the way and destroyed her inner child, much to her chagrin. I wish that I could go back in time and give her a big giant hug and let her know that everything was going to be ok. Sometimes, that's all people really need ... a little support, a little confidence, a little love. I know I certainly do! Life is just too hard sometimes. It's nice to know that someone cares.


Sunday, May 24, 2009

I Wanna Be Sedated ...

Do you ever feel invisible? Like there is a whole lotta stuff going
on around you, but no one sees you or wants your input? I've been
struggling with that feeling for a few days now. Don't know why. No reason
... every reason? WTF is going on anyway?

I'm naturally a quite and shy girl. What has that ever gotten me? People that think that I'm stuck up. People treating me like I don't exist. People not understanding me. People that are nice to me one minute, then take advantage the next. It's really disappointing ... life ... sometimes. I just want to be included, even if I am on the quiet side. Being quiet and shy doesn't mean that I don't have feelings. In fact, I'm sooo introverted sometimes that I think I may have more feelings than most. Too much time to think and rethink things.

I want to leave you with a quote that is close to my heart, especially recently:

“I am Me. In all the world, there is no one else exactly like me. Everything that comes out of me is authentically mine, because I alone chose it -- I own everything about me: my body, my feelings, my mouth, my voice, all my actions, whether they be to others or myself. I own my fantasies, my dreams, my hopes, my fears. I own my triumphs and successes, all my failures and mistakes. Because I own all of me, I can become intimately acquainted with me. By so doing, I can love me and be friendly with all my parts. I know there are aspects about myself that puzzle me, and other aspects that I do not know -- but as long as I am friendly and loving to myself, I can courageously and hopefully look for solutions to the puzzles and ways to find out more about me. However I look and sound, whatever I say and do, and whatever I think and feel at a given moment in time is authentically me. If later some parts of how I looked, sounded, thought, and felt turn out to be unfitting, I can discard that which is unfitting, keep the rest, and invent something new for that which I discarded. I can see, hear, feel, think, say, and do. I have the tools to survive, to be close to others, to be productive, and to make sense and order out of the world of people and things outside of me. I own me, and therefore, I can engineer me. I am me, and I am Okay.” ~ Virginia Satir


Thursday, May 14, 2009

I Love To Read This Gothic Poem Out Loud ...

The Hideous Existence of Barnaby Drudge

by Howard Camner

born with almost no head
no arms
no legs
no god to point a finger at
no fingers to point with
Barnaby Drudge is one for the books

virtually unemployable
dropped in a sawmill
raised by opossums
in his own private corner of Hades
he weaves his webs
hanging upside-down by his twisted soul
paralyzed by law
he is a blatant liar
promising to give his word
Swearing to take a vow
vowing to break his promise

Barnaby Drudge is one for the books
forced to extremes
drawn to headlights
rewriting history in his bedside journal
taking credit for every natural disaster
he crosses his black heart and then the highway
accusing himself of being no one

if he ever gets caught in your headlights
and there's no time to stop
do not be afraid

he'll never see his murderer
he sees only perimeters
he cannot see you

to Barnaby there is no substance
there is no matter
there is nothing
he sees only perimeters

and who could blame him for that?

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Some Days You Gotta Dance ...

I received this via E-mail today and wanted to share it with you ...

"I don't care if you lick windows,
take the special bus or occasionally pee on yourself.
You hang in there, sunshine - you're friggin' special.
Every sixty seconds you spend angry, upset or mad,
is a full minute of happiness you'll never get back.

Today's Message of the Day is:
Life is short, Break the rules, Forgive quickly, Kiss slowly, Love truly,
Laugh uncontrollably, And never regret anything that made you smile..

Life may not be the party we hoped for,
but while we're here, we should dance.."

Sooooo true!! I hope it inspires you as well :)


Sunday, May 10, 2009

You Can Stand Under My Umbrella ...

I was thinking ... hmmmmmmm ... I haven't done a "quote post" in a little while, so here are some of my faves. All but one come from One Tree Hill ... but they are special ones that have deep meanings for me personally. I hope you enjoy them as much as I do :)

"Draw a crazy picture,
Write a nutty poem,
Sing a mumble-gumble song,
Whistle through your comb.
Do a loony-goony dance
'Cross the kitchen floor,
Put something silly in the world
That ain't been there before."
~ Shel Silverstein

"I want to draw something that means something to someone! You know, I want to draw blind faith, or a fading summer, or just a moment of clarity. It's like when you go and see a really great band for the first time and nobody is saying it but everybody is thinking it. We have something to believe in again. I want to draw that feeling... but I can't. And if I can't be great at it, then I don't want to ruin it. It's too important to me."
~ Peyton Sawyer

"You were wrong yesterday when you said the kids in the clubs were just there for decadence. I think it's more like romance and hope and inspiration and that feeling that you get when other human beings pick up basic instruments and make sense of your world. And the day that I think it's just about making money is gonna be the day that. I've betrayed everything I believe in about music and life and myself."
~ Peyton Sawyer

"Yeah, but there’s a great story behind it! Right before graduation, I went with some friends to this big outdoor music festival in Winston-Salem. It was in the middle of a field called The Meadow. Night comes,… this terrible thunderstorm rolls in. Thunder, lightening. None of the bands could play. Thirty thousand people, mud up to our knees… waiting it out. Praying for the storm to break. But it never did. Power’s lost,… there’s nothing but the sound of the rain. Then, out of the blackness,… Paul Westerberg steps into center stage with an acoustic guitar. And plays ‘Here Comes a Regular’. Thirty thousand people fall silent to hear that one… acoustic guitar. And the one voice that accompanied it. It was transcendent… standing there,… in the darkness, listening to that song with my best friends. I think that was the moment in my life where I felt most alive."
~ Ellie Harp


Wednesday, May 6, 2009

What SGP Means To Me ...

Supportive ~ we support SGP, SGP supports us, we support each other.
Optimism ~ belief that people and events are inherently good, so that most situations work out in the end for the best. Totally SoGoPro!
Uber-talented ~ because the word Uber is uber-funny :) and the SGP crew is ultra talented!
Touching the lives of us all, one post at a time.
Hardwork and honesty ~ couldn’t decide ~ both are totally appropriate.
Encouragement ~ they encourage us to read more, listen more and learn more.
Random Fridays in chat … love them!
Narrative ~ we get this through their blog … a step by step narrative of the beginnings of Southern Gothic Productions and its team.

Generosity ~ ‘nuff said!
Oneiric ~ (which means “pertaining to dream”) “the connection between dreams and films has been long established” … reminded me of Nick.
T-shirts ON SALE NOW!
Haikus, limericks and stream-of-conscience writings.
Inspiration … I mean, like, constantly!
Charisma ~ in their projects, in their fans and in the actors that they choose.

Pedestrian ~ the first of many films for SGP.
Rooftops that we scream from.
Oenophobia ~ none of that with this group (the fear or hatred of wine)
Determination ~ SoGoPro will be BIG … just you wait … it’s already begun!
Understanding of the industry and how it inherently works.
Candid blogs, vlogs and posts of all sorts.
Talent ~ 1. a special natural ability or aptitude, 2. a capacity for achievement or success, 3. a group of persons with special abilities. ~ yes, yes and yes!!!
Imagination ~ you need this in order to survive in the film industry ~ and SGP has enough to go around for everyone!
Onomatopoeia ~ seriously, there’s not many good words beginning with O … and this one is fun … like Southern Gothic.
Nurture ~ I chose this word because to do this in all respects is a wonderful thing … and SGP does!!!
Sharing in our lives and allowing us to share in theirs.


Friday, May 1, 2009

Oh ... I Heart Fridays ... And The Cure

I don't care if Monday's blue
Tuesday's grey and Wednesday too
Thursday I don't care about you
It's Friday I'm in love
Monday you can fall apart
Tuesday Wednesday break my heart
Thursday doesn't even start
It's Friday I'm in love

Saturday wait
And Sunday always comes too late
But Friday never hesitate...

I don't care if Monday's black
Tuesday Wednesday heart attack
Thursday never looking back
It's Friday I'm in love

Monday you can hold your head
Tuesday Wednesday stay in bed
Or Thursday watch the walls instead
It's Friday I'm in love

Saturday wait
And Sunday always comes too late
But Friday never hesitate...

Dressed up to the eyes
It's a wonderful surprise
To see your shoes and your spirits rise
Throwing out your frown
And just smiling at the sound
And as sleek as a shriek
Spinning round and round
Always take a big bite
It's such a gorgeous sight
To see you eat in the middle of the night
You can never get enough
Enough of this stuff
It's Friday
I'm in love

I hope ya'll have a super weekend! I'm sure that I'll talk to some of you, but for the others ... I still have love for ya :)